With the craziness of the last month or so, I feel like I need to write but I’m not sure I know how to release everything in my head. Everyone asks whats wrong but the answer is complicated. There isn’t anything wrong but there is. I feel the need to ramble about, well everything. Its all so twisted and cramped that I’m not sure even I can make sense of it. I need to step out of the box, I need to figure out whats going on, I need to just clear my head and make it all go away.
I wanna tell him I love him but he’s too late. I wanna tell her that she doesn’t have to hate me. I wanna tell him that I’m more in love than he could probably guess. I wanna tell her to go away she’s not wanted. I want to tell him that he’ll fall before I will. I want to shake them and make it better. I wanna push him out of the picture. I wanna make her fall off the beaten path. I wanna make it all better for her and find one for him. I wanna send her the sweetness she deserves and prove to him he’s luckier than the average Joe. I wanna show him that I wasn’t exaggerating. I’d like to find one for him too. I wanna know what I’m supposed to do. I wanna show the world that talk is cheap and the proof is in the pudding. I want it all to be better after a good nights sleep. Mostly I just want someone to wrap his arms around me and say its all gonna be okay.